Well happy new years all, 2011 is finally here. Not much to say, been playing lots of Minecraft, got a D in one of my class, I’m think about writing a book, and meditating on my life.
First, been playing a hell lot of Minecraft. I reset the guild server on the 25 and we’ve been building since. Already got a town with walls, massive underground halls and tunnels. I’m building a classic style Pre-flood Atlantis on top of a Massive Dwarf/Dragon Style lair/hall under my house in town. More grand project to come, and all while dodging zombies, skeletons, spiders, and hundreds of creepers.
Sadly I got a D in one of my classes. Going to retake it, this time in the actual class room and not online. Also going to take other classes to raise my GPA to possible get into the Elemetary Ed program.
But I’m also think about changing to an online 3D render/graphics program if I can find one that I can get finical aid for. Been wonder if I should give up on going to japan to teach English and instead work in Movie/video games production.
Also Considering writing a book, finally. Been having hundreds of ideas floating in my head for years but been to lazy/not cared enough to do them. I think I’m going to get Dragon Speak and finally try to get it down on “paper”
Finally been meditating and think about my boring life. All the day dreaming, books, movies, anime, Videos games and such over the years have left me kind of depressed. I’m stuck in this boring world, where even the new moon programs have been pushed back for who knows how long. For a Scifi fan such as myself this world is so damn boring. I really don’t see anything in my life that says “Here is where you belong, Here is what you should be doing”. I want to travel the universe in a Starship, visit the mood or mars, running a mining ship in the asteroid belt, pilot/build a gaint hover tank or Mech (I’d be happy with construction ones), or travel the dimensions. Yet all this for ever beyond my grasp, all I can do is live, maybe get married, have some kids and die.
Being a dreamer suck , in the end it’s all beyond your graps, and the only escape you have is Video games or small projects. Even if I write a Grand book about all this I’m not even one step closer to find a place, a home, and a future for myself. Anymore all I’ve been doing are fruitless search for what and who I am, or want to be, with no more answers then I had when I was in elementary school.
I’m going to quit rambling now and just going to sleep now, and hope I can dream.